Goodbye 2013, Hello 2014!

Well. 2014 is here. I really don't have any words to be said, exept that maybe I really hope that this year will be better and a more successful year.
What am I hoping for this year and what I'm thinking of doing this year is mostly something I always wanted to do and that is, to write a novel! I had so many ideas for all kinds of different books, but I never got the chance to really sit down infront of it, fight with my thoughts and put the images I see in words. Not this time. I've already decided that I am going to start with a certain novel that is in my head and to really focus on in whenever I have free time.
''The boy that was raised with a gun'' is the name of the novel. It's about a young boy who was caught by some bank robbers and they didn't have any intentions of keeping him hostage, or letting him go. They adopted him, so to say, but none of the robbers were called ''father'' in the story. Mainly it's a story about a young boy that was raised by robbers and tought on how to hold a gun and shoot.Basically a story behind the criminals lives. What we know about them is only after they have done something like, robb a bank or kill someone, but we don't really know how they really live. This story, will indtroduce us to them. :3
I am not saying I know anything about them in the actual word but I've done my research with real actual criminal stories I've read. :3 and some of my own fantasiesed stuff xD

Wow.. It's already 2014. Seems like only last week it was 2007! Unbelievable.. I'll be maybe posting a bit about my progress of the book here I haven't decided yet. The only thing I'm doing now is studying for my test I'll be doing the minute I come back to school and getting ready to meet my friends tomorrow :3

SPEAKING OF WHICH. I'm thinking of thanking these little fellas I've met from 2012-2013 that made my life a lot easier and way more fun!

Order does not matter and I will not be calling them by their real names :3 but I know they'll recognize eachother by their nicknames xD

Rabbit <3

No matter how clean you'll be in your head, I'm always there to make the mess. Thank you for always being so dear to me and almost never denying my ideas :3 which I kindly ask you to stop because I don't want you to do stuff that will make me feel good while you feel miserable -.- you're sweet and kind and I love your chipmunk laugh! You're so tiny and quite, like a little fairy bringing good. You're like an angel send from who the hell knows where, sat on my shoulder and tells me to do good deeds. You help me choose the right decisions even though sometimes I deny them but deep down I know you're right. You're never afraid to tell the truth whenever I ask for it. You never left my side and try to understand my jokes. I'm happy you're around and I hope you'll always be <3

Cocoa <3

Now this guy, pure awesomness. I love shopping with you, ya know that, hopefully in 2014 we'll get to do that more. I love it how you know me without me trying to explain. You're always around and make me feel better, give me warm hugs and YOU KNOW I LOVE YOUR HUGS RIGHT?! You're a funny guy, usually annoying, in a good way, and I like spending time with you and I feel great when you can open up to myself. I know I made my mistakes with you but I'm happy that you can alwayd forgive me from my stupidness and stick by my side, you crazy arse wolf.. :3 <3 I'm happy I met you :3 weirdo <3

Flow/Merida/Emz

Yes. I had to call you Emz oke? I promised! XD I called you Flow now, since of your adorable curly/wavy hair! And, you know Merida comes in.. because of your hair! You're a brave little lady <3 and I love you. I wish I wasn't that careful of what I say around you, since for me you feel very delicate and I'm afraid to say something that would drive you away. Thank you for always being there for me whenever I cried. Thank you for always caring so much for me, asking me if I was okay the second my eyes looked down, even thought half of the times I was just tired xD I love your smile <3 really <3 I love it that you know what to say to make me feel better. I love it that you're the reason my pain is going away, just for you being there besides me! I really hope that someday I can be besides you, and repeat the words you once said to my heart, that slowly healed it <3

Gaffel! <3

(It means fork in swedish)

You. Are. Awesome. You are someone I never get tired of and whenever I'm in the gaming mood, I always wait for you to come to school and then... Table.. Cards.. YES! I have so much fun with you and I just love the connection we have. We mainly talk swedish, which is hard for me, ya know that xD and I keep trying to push myself forward to get to know you even better. I love your jokes, I swear of god they are just hilarious! I love it how you are proof of my ''mind reading''. The connection is overwhelming! xD You are beautiful and strong and just a pure heart of gold! <3

Miss Karate <3

I don't have a perticullar nickname for you, still need to come up with one, so I'm going with Miss Karate for now xD
I don't know you that well, but I know you are someone I can talk to. You're a fun person, a very gentle person, and I love your jokes. You always make me laugh no matter what, and in school your presentations are really interesting and funny. I love it how you are interested in stuff that mostly women aren't. Karate, Army, Scout leader? These things are just amazing and make you a very interesting person. I'll never forget those days when we both found out we went to the Military Weekend. I was relieved I wasn't going there alone! Sometimes we play cards, which I find really fun! <3 I hope that in 2014 we will get closer to eachother and find out things that we have in common! ^^

Mr. Salmon <3

You probably didn't think you'll appear here now did ye? :DD
You're just awesome.. Mainly I have to admit I am scared of you a bit, and you probably know the reason, if not, think about it, what am I really scared of, mostly is the second reason of loosing my confidence? :3
You're a nice person and you're not afraid to say what you think. We had our differences, which I can say that I won't forget, but you showed me that people can change, and to tell you the truth, giving you a chance was worth it. Because of that, I now have two amazing friends. I probably annoy you with my problems, it's just that you are someone I can trust. A lot. Even thought it might not seem like it, but I would do anything for you. Despite the past, I never thought I could have hurted you because of the past I kept thinking you were a cold hearted jerk and for that I do must apologize. I love it that you didn't give up to win our friendship, even though it's not going to be the same, it's still actually.. better. You help me build up my confidence and tell me to never give up from someone like you I never thought to get good advice. You always confuse me, making me forget the things that happened. I love you :3 you're someone I can always look up to. Also, gaming buddy <3 I hope you'll come back soon!

Fries <3

You're someone special, ya know that? I'm happy I learned how to accept you and I'm happy that even though through so much pain I've met someone who is so nice like you :3 you're someone I can talk to about anything and always can tell out my feelings without you judging them. You are beautiful to me :3 you're someone I feel confertable around EVEN though you have that ONE habit I don't like, and you know that, and ALWAYS ask me if it's okay for you to let that habit out and take a few steps away. I find it very respectful <3 This year, I am hoping to be able to spend more time with you! I have a chance now! Hey.. I'm 18! xD I love it that someone you can go crazy with me <3 and that we ALWAYS talk stuff that sometimes we both don't understand what we are talking about, but we don't drop the subject because it's just too damn silly and fun! And that you accepted the name Mr. Kitty to your cat xD just awesome xD I just want you to know that even though if I practically never talked swedish with you, that doesn't mean I don't understand it :3 if you don't feel like talking english with me, you can always talk swedish with me! I'll just answer in english and who knows, maybe I'll get the confidence to start talking swedish! ^^ you're beautiful.. No matter how you look, no matter what you've done.. You're beautiful! :3 And I love you...! ALSO. My gaming buddy xD

Soulmate <3

Yes. You. The bastard that I adore so much. Talking to eachother 24/7 nothing but nonsense yet the importance of it is beyond others understanding. You're someone I really care about. You're special and I keep you close to me no matter what. Just like you always said, I love it that you can understand my jokes, that whenever we play Tera, Minecraft or just randomly skype time goes by like seconds. You've heard things from me that noone else ever had, and I love the fact that you never see me less of it. You're learning lithuanian! YAY! That makes me happy! :3 you make me laugh and smile no matter what. I love it how we have so many things in common! And we both shuffle! Love hardstyle and SDFGHJKL I can't even find the right words for you but.. YOU kartais svajoji apie suri xD I love the fact that I can always ask you question about your past and your feelings and so on. Thanks for being around me and even if you think you don't actually help, you do! Thank you for making my heart heal and making me forget the past and moving on. You're someone special. Really :3 <3 Love ye :3 <3

You...

There is also one person I want to thank. This person won't read it anyway so it doesn't really matter what I'll say. If you think I go a day without thinking of you then you are wrong. I still do. I guess. I miss the times we had. You were a fun person, but now that you've changed.. I just hope that you still won't have that look at me whenever you see me walking by, passing through. You can pretend that I am just a stranger to you but I won't. We had a history. We spended time together closer than with anyone I know. It's just too sad that because of my stupidness I managed to mess it all up. I miss you. I guess that's all I have to say.


BUT ANYWAY! I love my friends <3 I adore them and they are so different and yet still so special to me in an equal way <3 I never knew what real friendship was until I met these little lights in my life. You're the best and I hope that we will always stick together! <3