Halla Halla Halloween

For the first time in my life I have decided to celebrate Halloween!

I've always loved he idea to dress up as anything I want and spend my whole day watching creepy stuff and horror movies.

Because it was my first time, I only celebrated Halloween with two of my good friends.

I tried to invite some of my other friends too, but unfortunately, have of them live millions of km away from me and had other plans, so I'm hoping that next year it's gonna be more than just the three of us!

For the first time ever, I got to carve a pumpkin into a Jack O' Lantern!
My mom bought two pumpkins and surprised me by asking me to carve them.
I got so excited and happy I begin to carve them immediately.

I took a little inspiration of Carnage from Spider Man, I did the eyes for the pumpkin like that.

The carving was very difficult because we didn't have the right knife for it, but I improvised and it went pretty well!

And this is the result of carving the two pumpkins.
Creeeepppyyyy!

And of course what is a Halloween party without a Halloween cake?
It was quite big though for just 3 people!
I still have more than half of it left!

 And in every Halloween party, you need decorations!
I love the fact that the decorations were so childish!
It was really fun!

 SPIDERS!




And of course, costumes!
My brother really wanted me to draw him something similar to the Grim Reaper
As we discussed about how should look, I ended up drawing a skull on his face, which was a quite learning experience!
I have never done anything so difficult before, especially with something simple as water paint.
Even though I have underwent classes on how to do face makeup, this one was quite hard!
The most difficult part to do was the teeth, but not because I didn't know how,
it was because my brother couldn't help but laugh, since the brushes tickles him A LOT.
So I couldn't do I good job, but at least I tried!
Regardless, I'm still happy with the results!

I've also done my own makeup and I was a freakin' panda!
Although I ended up like a mixture of a panda, and a raccoon!

After a while my brother decided to put his full costume on.
He was moving around and talking so I couldn't take a proper picture, and plus my tablet sucked!

We've spent the whole day just chilling on my couch and playing video games.
My other friend in the back dressed up as an evil scientist!
Which was freakin' awesome to see because I never expected him to wear something at all since he didn't have a costume, and then this little genius comes up with a freakin' cool costume at the last minute!

We've spent the whole day just watching movies, playing video games and eating junk food.
I have a few videos where we ate in the spooky atmosphere and played some video games

But then the day ended and these guys needed to go home.
But I absolutely loved their company and I hope next year I'm gonna have something bigger planned!
Thanks guys!!!

And since it's November, I would like to introduce to our new family member
Rajah!

Rajah is a Begal male cat that we are going to receive very very soon from the breeders.
We received these pictures from the breeders because we wanted to see him and see which name would fit him the most.
And I argued a lot that it would be Rajah.
And it ended up being it! <3

Anyone else see the similarities?



I can't wait for this little booger to come here!
I really do wonder how it's gonna change our family.
I'm gonna have to train him a lot for him to not do anything bad!
Like ruin my moms carpets!

Another thing I should totally brag about!
I have finally finished my Basic EU Law course and on Friday I had my exam.
It went smooth as fuck and I am certain that I have passed.
I have studied so hard for it, hand a bunch of meltdowns and anger explosions,
but in the end I had my lover to support me so I held my head high and went into that exam room and the first 4 question I saw, I almost teared up out of happiness, because I knew the answers!



 That's all for now!
I'll see you guys soon!


 And here's some sexiness for you all!

Can't wait for snow

Yet again I didn't manage to post anything here for a while!

Sorry!

To make it up to ya'll, I'm going to be making a video where I talk about my university, what I've learned, what I've experienced and how things are going for me!

But this time I thought I'm going to share a little about my absolute hobby that creates a gigantic bond with my dad!

Since me and my family live in Sweden, or in other words where Santa lives, there's a lot of snow and can get pretty cold here.
Once we moved here, he wanted to take advantage of that pure white cloudy soft snow.
And that is with snowmobiles!
(I find the English word so weird for these things!)

We went to a couple of stores earlier this week, and I was whining about how much I want snow to fall down on my ground so that I can start driving my baby!

Took some pics a long the way of these beauties! 

Chills down my spine  

 


Gonna be some fun time in my life 

University up my nose

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5 days left until my life in university begins.
I'm both scared and existed.
New life, new people, new experience.
The only scary part about it is if I will even continue what I'm studying after a year or two.
The scary part is that it may not even be my calling, perhaps I'm meant to do something else in my life instead of fighting crime and giving them justice.

Do you know how everyone says ''I don't know who I want to be when I grow up?''
Well that question never came to me.
Ever.
In fact, I want to be so many things.

The past 5 years I was dreaming to become an actress, live in a world outside reality, see myself on screen in different environments and meet different people with the same interest in life yet different outcomes of it.

I wanted to be a writer, to pull all my different worlds I have created in my head and put them on a sheet of paper, on thousands, sheets of paper and form a small paperback novel.

Once as a kid, I wanted to be an animal protector, or a veterinarian save the nearly extinct species and rescue beloved family pets.

Sometimes even a singer. To write my own lyrics that are a piece of my heart, soul and mind.

A digital creator. Designer. Creatures, characters for games, stories for games. A whole game.

I can't shake of my love for drawing, something I burn for, all my stories, my sketchbooks, still on my table.
Sometimes I fear that when times like this come, you have to put aside everything you love and focus on this one thing that may, or may not be your future.

Now my sheets of paper are sitting still. Blank, without any grey strokes.
Even though I try.

I never wanted to grow up, I wanted to be a kid that can sit alone in the room, play video games listen to music, draw and have a bunch of pets in my lap to keep me company.

But everyone in life is going to be sitting down rock bottom with no idea how to climb up and think that there is absolutely no point in life, it's just doing the same thing over and over again.
It's a loop that repeats itself your whole life.
I hope I won't be ending up in that loop.
And for that to not happen, my paper sheets are still going to be on my table.
So will my pencils.
My eraser.
My mp3 player for music.
My computer for games.
My drawing tablet for digital art.
My notes for my stories.
My characters.
For some people, what I hold dear may be one of those things that will ''never lead me far''.
But what I've learned in my 20 years, is to never let anyone tell you what can lead you far and what can't.
Because these things define who I am.
I'm an artist, I see things differently than everyone else.
And just because I'm going to study to become a lawyer, doesn't mean that is going to go away.
I'm just going to have my sketchbook and pen, near the book of Law.

No matter where you go, don't forget the things that matter to you.
The things that define YOU.

Ask Me

I have been wondering about this for quite some time now and I thought this may not be such a bad idea.

Either way, I should give it a shot.

As any human being in this world, we go through a lot of shit and sometimes we don't know which path to take so we end up googling about advice which may or may not fit in our situation.

I had to deal with that a lot and I've also seen others suffer from it.

If you're in a situation where you want someone to listen to you and/or give you some advice or just vent, I can say this, you can come to me.

I'm not a professional at giving advice but I have experience more than I ever say and I thought that I should make the best of it and use my experience to help others.

If your situation will be difficult for me to give any correct advice, I will be sending you articles and explanations that I will think that may fit into your situation and perhaps will be able to help.

I've set up a contact form through wordpress.com where you can either enter your real name, random nick or contact me as an anonymous and explain to me your problem and I will see if I can help.

After I've read your email, I may be providing you some questions that will need to be answered to give me a better insight of your situation for me to be able to give you the correct advice.

Please note that this is not permanent. 

This feature may be removed later on if I will see that I'm not cut out for it.

These are the subjects that I am willing to provide any advice to;

Anxiety

Depression

Stress

Appetite loss

Health

Fear of ???

Friendship

Broken Friendships

How to Apologize

How to Forgive

How to stay true to yourself

How to tell the truth

How to stay honest with yourself

Bullying

Cyber Bullying

Period/Menstruation Cycle

Crushes

Love

Relationships

Violent Relationships

Broken Relationships

Parents

Violent Parents

Divorce/Break up

Alcoholic Problem

Bad Habits

Slouching

Hate upon oneself

Suicidal Thoughts

Cutting/Injuring oneself

Hating Life

Not finding a meaning in life

Hobbies

Skin Care

Acne

Hair Care

These are the main problems I am quite capable of helping out.

If there is any problem you are dealing with that has not been written on the list, please contact me and give me a brief explanation on what is going on and I will respond as soon as I can with either additional questions or telling you to seek help somewhere else.

Please do not put all your hope into me.

This is something I would like to try and see if I am capable of doing.

The pink ''E-Mail Me'' sticker will be on the right side of my blog with the text ''Ask Evee Advice'' text above it. Just click on it and it will send you to the page where you can write your contact form and your problem.

ClickMe

Stay Strong!

NOTE: If I will be getting the same subject a few times from others, I will be posting my answers on the blog involving some of the subjects depending on what it is. I will NOT be posting your names. Everything you may write to me will be kept secret.

Away AFK

I'm going to be quite inactive here for a while due to me being in Lithuania!

Already been here for 5 days and I haven't told anyone about it.

It's really nice here, although the heat is absolutely killing me!!

Recently it got a bit cooler, which is nice but the wind isn't helping at all.

What I can tell you right now is that I have FINALLY, after so long, cut off my hair.

*Crowd screaming*

I know I know, like any other person might say, ''why would you cut that beauty!?''

The thing is, it started to get extremely difficult for me to have that length.

The weight on my head was unbearable and the tangles were enormous. 

I didn't cut it super short, I cut it to the length I think I know I can handle. 

Which is a bit medium length now.

Not only did I cut it, but also dyed it!

I stumbled on a hairdresser that was a bit concerned about me hair, she didn't want to ruin it completely due to the fact that I never dyed my hair before, never cut it, so she had no idea how my hair would react.

Instead of coloring it all bleach blond, she did some thick highlights that brightened my hair.

I didn't quite enjoy it.

Not the way it looks, but the fact that my hair is too healthy and I can barely do anything with it! XD

Although I'm enjoying it a little bit now, even though I'm planning on redyeing it in the future.

I can kind of understand why she didn't want to dye my hair blonde completely, nobody ever wants to ruin healthy hair.

When I get back to Sweden, there is going to be a loooot of stories of what I have done before I went to Lithuania, a little bit more about my graduation and of course, I am going to receive the answers from Uni soon. I'm quite stressed about it and wondering how it went. 

Either way I am hoping things are gonna be good.

That's all for now! <3

Graduation

It finally happened.

Today is the day I graduated!

I feel so happy but at the same time so sad.

Even through all those struggles in school, studies and project and life getting in the way, my class were the ones who made it all better.

I never had a class like that before, who's accepting and understanding in that way and I gotta say I learned a lot from them!

The celebration was amazing. I had a blast! There was music, dancing and pure out LOVE from everyone, including other classes. I made a few videos about the performances and the truck rides, I will add them later on because I still need to edit them and cut them and glue them and what not.

Before the celebration everyone met outside the school for some drinks, snacks catching up and sometimes a little tear. We had fun and laughed and we then we received class name tags. It was extremely excited and funny how everyone received their class name tags. Some had such hilarious ones! I was happy when I got mine. It says ''Classes Artist'' I literally puffed my chest up, waved at them all and said ''Finally! My art has been recognized and acknowledged!'' It was very heart warming to get these class tags, it's a way of naming a person in one word that you knew for 3 years that describes them in so many ways. 1 word that contains 1000 words. 

 And then there is of course the throat screaming truck.

In Sweden, you ride in a back of a caravan or truck that is being pulled by a huge vehicle with a decided class poster and some music to make the ride more awesome.

Party party and what not!

''If you think labor market is tragic, you should see our absence/attendance.''

Our class was lame at always showing up in time. 5, 10, 30 minutes late. Perhaps even an hour or two. To tell you the truth, many of my classmates, even TODAY, came a little late, but juuuuust in time!

 One of the most memorable times of the day was when I saw one of my ''before-friend'' coming towards the truck and waving to me. Our friendship kind of broke a few months back. When I saw him, I gave him a pouting upset look, but when I saw his face I couldn't help but smile and wave, so that he could drop that sadness and smile back.

He came near the truck to congratulate me on my graduation and gave me a little bag with a gift in it. It was heart warming. That even after such a long time, he hasn't forgotten me.

That's where when it was time for a reuniting fist bump.

I literally pulled my shoulder after that, but it was worth it for getting a good friend back.

What I learned from my class, life and my parents, is that everyone deserves a chance, be it one or one-thousand. A chance to make it all better between each other even if it's a raging flame of lava.

Gonna have to do some catching up to do with these peeps!

And one other thing, if you care about someone, don't ever ever EVER give up on them.

Watch them from afar but never leave them and always stretch a helping hand.

''Do those things to people, that you want to be done to you'' - My Mom. <3

''Do good to people so that they can do good to you'' - My Mom <3

(It is hard to translate from Lithuanian to English, especially that incredible sentence)

After such a huge celebration, I admit it, I'm tired. My make-up was running, my hair was fluffing, my eyes were falling.

Oh, I forgot to mention, I only had 4 hours of sleep!

The tension was getting to me!

After the celebration I've spent some lovely time with my parents, eating at an Asian restaurant and just bonding with them. I've had a whole new view of things, life and my parents. Right now I just have a huge need to be around them. Now that I have a chance I hope I will!

My parents also gave me my own, private photo-shoot <3

 Sassy <3

Rock that hat! Ah-Rock it haaaard!

 All pictures where taken near the waterfall in Vindeln

And then of course, every Princess, needs a King <3

My beloved Dad.

Worlds best Dad! Love you! 

And of course, my beautiful Queen <3

I love you Mom <3

You're the strongest person I know <3

 A few little gifts I got from my family and friends <3

Not all of them fit in the little table there but I'll bring you guys up for a close-up later!

 And of COURSE, I had to take a picture of my lovely graduation hat!

It has all the beautiful words of my beloved classmates inside <3

 So.

Graduation?

It feels great.

But at the same time,

Sad.

I still have so many regrets.

So many things I haven't done or said.

Never managed to open up.

But I guess all of that taught me that if I won't risk it, I won't brisk it.

But I can't dwell on it.

I gotta move forward.

And one things for sure, I feel FREE!

(Thanks Dad for the amazing pictures! <3)

''I got pushed, I fell down, I stood up, fixed my crown and walked away'' - (Queen of Spades)

Preparing for Life

I haven't been so active lately, but I guess my last post kind of cleared it all up. School, University, Graduation, that's a lot to do!

Now of course prom is coming. I'm psyched! 

Unfortunately I won't be going to the actual prom dance. After hearing that there will be a lot of drinking and such I decided not to go. 

Lately the days I found out that someone else I knew wasn't going to the prom dance either, so we decided to spend some time with each other instead.

So technically, I have a date!

GAH!

And this date of mine is the most adorable person I know so I'm frekkin happy!

I'm not gonna spoil who it is, so I'll spoil it after Friday ;p

We are planning on going to a restaurant and just have fun! It's going to be awesome I can tell, instead of going to parties that have drunks in it it's best to just have fun with someone as adorable as my date! 

So since prom and graduation is coming, I kind of noted I have absolutely nothing that can make me ''beautiful''.

Yah, Make-up.

So I literally panic shopped these two days.

Luckily my mom was very supportive and patient with me and walked back and forth with me to find the perfect matching make-up and of course jewelry. 

I spent more money than I get in a month!

But with all I have right now it's probably enough for years!

 I got this fancy looking lipstick from Viva La Diva called Summer Breeze. I absolutely love it! I also have Moon Walk (Turquoise) and Kharma (Purple) lipsticks from their company, I frekkin adore them! Although I managed to ruin Kharma because I extended it while it was still inside the case.

 Of course I had to buy two different colors of foundation for contouring my face.
I never tried this one but it was recommended from a friend.

I honestly am in LOVE with Nude colors these days. Mom went crazy and started searching for them for me. She found the last case and I literally jumped and said I loved her, haha.

 

These were kind of the same as Nudie but Isadora did have some colors Nudie didn't.

And like any girl in this world, you gotta get them Brow Palettes!
This one was the last one left for the Mid Brown color collection and I must say, I got really upset when I opened it at home, it was USED.
It wasn't used too much, but I lost a bit of faith in humanity there for a while.
Every time I go around shops I find some earrings missing from their collection or make-up palettes being opened up, or ALL lip pens being used.
Some people don't have any manners and this usually happens in Sweden, I've never seen such a thing happen in Lithuania.

 Like I've said before, mom got crazy with the eye-shadow palette searching and she found the all color Viva La Diva color palette. I absolutely love this one, it has over 70 different colors!

I just had to buy this eye-shadow.
I love plumb color and when I found this I had to have it!

 

And of course welcome to girly-land. Fake eyelashes! I dislike the pre-made ones so I bought cut pieces instead. Usually I don't go for them, but when a make-up artist used them on my wedding make-up, I kind of liked it!

 Of course, I got absolutely tired of the liquid liner so I thought it's Gel Liner time!

 Mom bought me some jewelry for the Graduation because I'm not a ''jewel'' person I had to buy some new ones. Got a bracelet, a ring (probably my first ever) two earrings and a necklace that match everything!

 And what is make-up without some nail-polish! I love ''essie'' nail-polishes. They are the only ones that stick to my nail! Others after a day fall off and I hate that!
The story about that teddy bear it actually true love. When I was shopping for my jewels and other accessories for my hair and such, I saw this little teddy just hanging there and I immediately fell in love with it. Sadly all my stuff was already scanned and mom was prepared to pay, until mom took out the bonus card and the cashier said if we buy another item we will get a discount. I rushed to the teddy.
And now I have him in my hands 
Oh yeah.
Better Love Story Than Twilight.

 These little poopers! I was looking for them everywhere and now I have them!
I love the case. It reminds me of the Dragon Balls and it kind of brightened my day haha.

 And now probably the saddest news of the day.
I hear a rumor  that my favorite Game shop is closing.
GAME.
I was extremely sad because that is where I usually buy all my games.
I am not a 100% sure if this is true because I haven't heard anything from their website but all I know is that were selling everything 40% off.
EVERYTHING.
Games, controllers, candy, merchandise.
I panicked after I saw the 40% discount on everything and started searching for a game.
Pff.
EVERY GOOD GAME WAS GONE.
I had to call my friend to ask him about games and every game he said that was good was not even there.
Except for MGS V.
But it was rather expensive so I bought the cheaper games which I kinda had some familiarity with.

I also bought some shoes but I didn't take a picture of it. I probably will when I go meet my date tomorrow!

I also had my braces changed today! Right not it's the color of Lavender! (Baby Purple)
Frekkin love it but I'm in for some pain.
The dentist clearly asked ''you sure you will be able to handle it with this wire?''
I said ''YAH''
So, currently nothing hurts but I'm prepared for the worst!

PS. I added some new music to my blog instead of listening to the same crap over and over again!
Enjoy and Stay Strong!