HALLOWEEN PARTY!

So!
My lovely class has decided to make a halloween party!!!<33
Of course it's not gonna be on the actuall October 31:st but still!
We get to dress up awesomely and boogie down all night <3
I love my class SO MUCH! They are the best thing that ever happened to me!
Such friendly and joyful people. Such heart warming human beings. Makes me so happy to around them, sometimes though I wish I wasn't that shy and opened up more.

Today I went shopping with my classmate which is also my best friend who helped me out to pick out contact lenses for tomorrow. (Writing this in the middle of the night so techically, today...)
I wanted white contact lenses, but they were sold out. So I decided to buy red ones. :3 <3

They look orange in the photo, but they are.... EXTREMELY red irl!
Gonna do lots of makeup and stuff tomorrow, get to take some pics of it and show you how it will all look like! And of course my lovely classmates in the party <3
JUST CAN'T WAIT! <3
We should totally do those kind of things more often! xD


ALSO,
Forgot to mention some things, that 3/4 of my stuff came a few days ago and I wore them, and took pics :3 so gonna post them even though they are 1-3 days old :3

Tights <3

Stockings <3

                                                          And DAT fluffeh coat <33

Gonna get a PayPal card soon. GONNA ORDER MORE STUFF! <3

Dats all for today :3 <3

''Turn down the volume 2'' Live with it!

IIIIIT happened AGAIN!

Same woman, same buss same time same annoyence.
The same woman that told me to turn down my music a few days ago, said that again. This time she came up with the lamest argument ever. She wasn't sitting near me but she was sitting infront of me.
She turned around and looked at me for a while, when I tried to ignore her. Then she started talking to me and told me to turn down my volume of my music.

The witch: Turn down the volume.
Me: Uuuuuh o.e don't want to.
Witch: What? The buss ticket doesn't that I have to listen to it every damned morning!
Me: Well I like my music, so.. Live with it.
Witch: Excuse me?
Me: I said, live with it.
Witch: Turn down the damn music!
Me: Uuuhh... Nope :3 <3

Yep, this is how the converastion went. Of course I got pissed off but I didn't show any of my anger. The thing is, I think I did the right thing.
I stood up for myself.
She doesn't the the right to tell me what to do, she isn't my mom. If she was my dad, my mom, any of my family or my dearest friends, I would turn down the music, but to a stranger like her? No thank you.
''The buss ticket doesn't show I have to listen to this every morning'' Well, miss, there is no rule in the buss that I am NOT allowed to listen to loud music. :3
It's MY music, MY ears, MY mp3, MY headphones (Scott <3) MY LIFE.
I don't really care if people don't like my music. If they don't like it they should buy those earthingies to plug their ears so that they wouldn't bother me.
I am not gonna let my pride down. I am proud of my music. The end :3

LOTS OF TOPICS! Movie, Cry, Hair, Mock.

Lots of things to talk about today! Gonna talk about a movie I saw, and... other stuff xD ANYWAY <3

MOVIE

I few days ago I saw a movie called ''The Incredible Burt Wonderstone.''
The movie is about a boy who was always bullied when he was a kid and his parents were never around, so he was always alone. He never had any friends and was ''a loser'' in school. One day on his birthday he got a magic kit from mom and he started to learn magic, he found a friend Anton in school and both of them decided to do magic together for a living. They become famous, best friends and amazing magicians, but after a while they got bored of it and didn't feel the ''magical feeling'' towards magic so decided not to find new tricks. After a while, a guy named Steve Gray (which is acted by the one and only JIM CARREY!), who is a different kind of magician/stunt man, who steals their spot light and destroys their friendship. After that they try to become famous again by experimenting with magic tricks.

Hope not much of a spoiler :I

I think the movie was GREAT. It was funny, touching, and right out crazy. It was a comedy of course and also a huge friendship kind of movie. Also, you get to learn something from it, and what I learned is that there can never be such thing as ''selfishness'' in a friendship.

My fav character was Steve... Not only because he was Jim Carrey no, that character is bad ass. A jerk, but just plain AWESOME.

My fav scene <3

CRY

I think I should share this. Yesterday night, out of no where, I started crying. For those who read I probably have forgot to mention that I am an extremely sensitive person, when it comes to friends.
It's a normal thing that I cried. Only because, I miss someone. Someone that I haven't gotten near me today. Our friendship has been broken for a while now and to admit it all, it's all my fault.. When that person said ''you'll realize what you've done'', yesterday, I have.
I was a complete idiot to treat my him like that. Even though there were many times he wasn't dear to me and treated me like trash, yelled at me and hurt me over and over again, doesn't mean I still don't have that dear feeling towards him. And, he wasn't the only one who hurt me, I hurted him too, which really sucks.
I was stuck in my depression for ages, stuck in my past even when he was around, and now that I am finally getting back on my feet again, I feel SO stupid for doing all those stupid things that drove him away.
Sometimes I wish I could knock on his door and apologize in person instead of writing depressing messages to him and drive him further away. 

I was such a fool.. And I feel so bad now, because in a way, I destroyed him too.. Both of us, in a way, are broken and nobody can fix it.. Is it all up to me? Should I really apologize? And I actually mean walking to his place even though I have no idea where he actually is, and apoligize..
There are so many things I usually want to say to him.. Not only that, to my other friends whom I've lost.
But I am always afraid... No, I am not afraid of telling them the truth, sharing my thoughts, no.. I'm afraid.. Of the words they'll speak after I've spoken my heart..
''If I speak from my heart .I'm scared it'll get broken. I'm afraid of what they might after the words I have spoken.''
If I only had confidence in me.. I'd apologize and for this time to actually try to make things work without anyone doing it for me.

HAIR

Well... My hair -.-
TBH I'm starting to hate my hair..
Everyone keeps saying '' you have such long beautiful hair ''
Yes.. I know. ''Longbeautifulhair'' that you can't do ANYTHING with.
It annoys me. I tried so many awesome hairstyles but my hair is either, not trimmed, too long, too healthy or ''not enough''
But that is where I had enough o.o YUSH!
GONNA CUT MY HAIR
A little bit shorter, and dye it. Hair dip. Blond. Can't wait for the results and I really hope everything will work. Because, I really love playing with my hair and it feels soooo blaaaarggh when I see pictures of people with good hairstyles and awesome tutorials that my hair can't handle. Ugh the feel. No.
Waiting for Halloween. That is when perhaps I'll do my hair <3

 

MOCK

Some of you may not know what mock means.
Lemme explain.
Mocking, is something like bullying, but secretly talking behind a persons back and laughing from the way they look and dress up.
On my way to the trainstation, infront of me there was this kind, very much chubby guy and there were two girls passing by. After passing him, they mocked him quietly and one of the girls threw her hands on the sides bilding up a ''ballon'' sized arms, filled her cheeks with air and walked like she was carrying something heavy. Which in this case, she showed how ''fat'' he was.
I don't really like those kind of people. In fact, I hate them. It is not a pleasuring thing to see when somebody mocks people from the way they look when they don't even know them in person.
To admit, I sometimes do that too, but not when it comes to chubby people. I usually say ''Omg.. Look at the way she looks like...'' Point a finger and be shocked. Only when that person looks.. Well.. Ruined.
There are so many pretty girls in the world and they don't know how to take care of themselves!
Dyes their hair differently every week, in the end, nothing but chicken feathers on their head.
Has a huge possability to lose some weigh, doesn't do anything just eats hamburgers and junk food.
An extremely sweet girl, anorexic.
Two words.
DO SOMETHING!
If you are anorexic, try and fix that. If you are a bit ''chubby'' try to eat healthy, if you ''got no hair and split ends'' Dye is a normal color from Loreal and use conditioner, no heatings, nothing. I just don't want all this to end up in unhealthy death, or ''suicide'' when nobody likes the way you look.
But, I'm not here to judge, it's your life. I am just a warning.
And for those mockers, I want you to stop... Seriously! I may be a nice person but I can surely punch you in the face if I see another mocker.
Think about it this way.
What if it were you?
And people mocked YOU? Would you be happy about it? No.. You'll feel a heck of a BAD.
In my family we have this saying '' If you want people to be good towards you, you have to be good towards them''
And that not only includes of being polite, but also helping people. This even includes families and work and friendships and relationships.
Sure it's not wrong to share your thoughts and opinions, but only for a share limit. Otherwise it will only go to hell. And I'm thinking, that's gotta stop.

Made it myself :3 <3

New Arrivals!

EXITMENT!

Finally out of my 4 ordered things I finally got my 2 new lovely arrivals from China/Japan/Korea! <3




My Pic of it :3

And these <3

From the lighting it seems like they are gold xD but they are silver :3

Could have taken better pics... But my camera died, and it was dark, hate the lighting then...
<3
Still waiting for my shoes and tights!



BIG Thanks to my Lovely Lady Biancia who ordered these for me because I haven't gotten my Paypal card yet -.-
Thank you sweetheart <3

Go check her InstaGram she is just GORGEOUS! <3 : _biri_
<3

2 TOPICS!! ''Turn the volume down.'' Sorry, but music is my life! + I'm kind?? Said by a stranger.

''Turn the volume down.'' Sorry, but music is my life!

So a funny thing happened to me yesterday morning.
Like always I listen to my music pretty loud. Well, it doesn't harm me. I use Koss headphones which usually are so that they throw a lot of sound out so that others can hear it without it even being so loud.
And I LOVE Koss. One of the best headphones I ever had and my complete favorite, the base is just so awesome! I had over 4 of them.. Since they broke many times because I listen to music very often in the buss on my way to school. Today I have white Koss headphones, and like my funny personality, I name some of my stuff. This years headphones are named Scott.
But back to the topic. So, I was listening to my music like I always do and there was this woman who asked if she could sit near I removed my stuff and continued listening to music. Hardstyle <3 forever.
All of a sudden the woman poked me and asked me if I could turn the music down.
That, is where I got really upset.
In my head, I was the Hulk, and she was Loki.
                        
At first I really do understand that my music can annoy many people.
But, first SMART thing she would have done is not sit near a girl with big ass headphones.
Second, unpolite to tell a stranger to stop doing something they like.
As a ''kind person'' I turned down my music.
For only a few seconds...
Then, it was ALL max sound.
I don't like it when people say that. It makes me annoyed. Music is my life and it's always around. Sitting in the buss all no music forever alone. No thank you xD
After a while the lady moved to sit somewhere else, I started laughing like hell.
I should maybe have a huge sign saying ''LOUD MUSIC LISTENER''
To not make anyone hate me.
What can I say, I love music more than being kind. :3




NEW TOPIC!

I'm kind?? Said by a stranger.

What can I say. Yesterday in school I was taking my lunch out from the fridge (yes we have a little kitchen for tea and other stuff we brought from home) and there was this guy who was sitting not too far away and he asked me if I had somethng to drink. He seemed a bit worried. I said that I do but it wasn't that much. He kindly asked if he could drink it, I started at the sprite bottle full of Gold mutli juice and gave it to him. He drank more than half which I didn't even mind. He gave the bottle back and thanked, and told me that I was really kind.I knew who he was because I have talked with him many times, but he is just an aquantince. I only smiled and said ''ok.. thanks'' he replied with a ''you have always been kind'' I was like '' well.. I am not always kind.'' he said '' to me you are''It is sometimes nice to hear that from someone who never wants to know me by my past but by the way I am now. I don't have the need to be selfish. Sometimes yes, everyone is, but I feel bad whenever I said ''no'' to someone. It never bothers me when someone gets something from me and takes half of it, as long as someone asks kindly without streatching their hand and said ''give''.I have a lot of manners when it comes to strangers and polite people. Normally around my friends I am very outgoing. Not when it comes to strangers.But I always love to help out someone as long as they ask nicely and not ask questions about my past. Then, it's not a very nice feeling to be with that person.
''He knows...''That's what is going in my head all the time.But, feeling better when nobody ever wants to talk about my past with me. Shows respect. I choose if I want to talk about it or not. If I do, things are always better :3Well, I guess I am kind. In a way :3

What's friendship?

This is something that was always on my mind.
What is friendship? Is it something you need? Deserve? Earn? I never realized what was true friendship when I came here to Midgård school, gymnasium. I was always pushed around and was the weirdest girl in class only because I liked these, unusual things in life. Sometimes I sit down and wonder what friendship is and if it even is worth of having.
I was always afraid to have any friends, because I knew that one day they will leave, or we will just grow apart. It was my biggest fear and yet my biggest destruction. I usually bought my own happiness with toys when I was a girl, right now with clothes and fashion but it's so.. Not real. I never wanted to have friendship with people because I get too much addicted to a person. I walk around them like a puppy the same day when I meet them to be accepted but.. It's not that what I expected.
Friendship has this thing called, love and care.. Honesty, trust, things that I am just not good at. I can't learn what friendship is in an instant, it takes time, but.. The fact that I am not a 100% sure of what friendship is, I make a lot of mistakes and because of that, I lose friends. Then it's little old me sitting and crying.
When you break a toy, you can fix it with glue, or just buy a new one. When you break a friendship, you can never fix it.
I recently lost 3 of my very dearest friends due to my selfishness.. And because of that, I feel bad. Mainly it's my fault, but I can't take the blame all for myself. ''To not be selfish, I have to share''.
I had a lot to think about these past 3 days, asked advice for people on what to do, practiced controlling my anger and obssesion with my past. Sometimes when something happens to a person in the past it keeps coming back everyday and it's hard to maintain a good friendship when you see your friends as those bullies that always picked around and pushed you away from things. Being picked last in gym, spat at, called weird, always sat alone in the corner and never having a partner for a project. It was quite surprising actually on how fast this progress went. I got hobbies to get occupied and people who talk to me about random happy things and not once get me think about my past or anger me. I got some help from a professional who has a lot of experiance with these kinds, read a lot of articals on how to control my anger and not let bad things come in my head, how to stay positive and to release my problems out of my soul without needing to have someone around me to listen.
Of course things can't be finished so fast. It will take a lot of time and effort.
But I won't want to hurt my friends anymore.. Even though if my life sometimes goes upside down. I need to stay strong. I am strong. That's what everyone says to me, that I am holding on. It's good to have friends who never leave my side, but I don't want to take the risk of loosing them. They are my happiness and it is unacceptable for them to leave.
I've been always googling and searching for definitions of what friendship was.
But I know what it is now.
The first one of what it is, isn't trust, love, care or honesty.
It's work and time.
It takes time to build up a friendship and really hard work. A ''sorry'' can never fix a broken friendship.
I know that if I want to have those people I lost a ''sorry'' won't work. To say I'm sorry? Everyone can do that.
But to show it?
That's the trickiest part.
I am not going to message, call, ask others to help out. I'm going to march right by their door. Kick it down and tell 'em. ''If we ever want this to work, we gotta try to make this work''
That's what I'm going to do. People shouldn't just give up on one another because of mistakes. Everyone makes mistakes, if nobody had, nobody would have learn the lesson.
In friendship there is such a thing as pain. Everyone will hurt you, even your best friends in the whole world, but you just gotta find someone worth suffering for.
Best friends do leave, but they always come back.
They will come back..
If you won't let them go.

Well, you're my diamond. <3

The feeling of not having a good camera with you.

My mornings? Not so great. Always so tired. Need to start going to bed earlier.

I usually nap in the buss, it's pretty quite there. Just sitting on a comfy chair and listening to some outstanding music while taking a good nap. That's what I usually do but even though if I am tired I can't stop looking out the window into the sky. Whenever there is a possability I see such a beautiful view!
Orange/pink/purple clouds crash with the light blue sky. Such a view.. Like fire crashed with ice, battling for the rightful place. How my eyes destoy me inside and I sit there, with my goddamn phone without a good goddamn camera! I cry inside sometimes when I see such a view and don't have a good camera to take a photo. Sometimes I wish I could take a picture with my eyes and then plug in a computer in my head so that I can see the pictures I took through my eyes in my computer. Copy paste, there you have it. A perfect picture. Someday perhaps I shall get one and when I do, I'll carry it with me everywhere. I won't take the risks of missing a great view. If I have good camera with me, and I'm on the buss. I'll ask the driver to stop for me to take a picture. I'll bribe him if I have to! I tried to take some with my phone. What I got :3

Eh the phone...

My luch was awesome though! I had pizza :3 and after that I grabbed a lovely desert! Fruit sallad! With delicious strawberries I bought! <3



GAH! STRAWBERRIES! <3

Getting Started :3

Well then. Shall I start to introduce myself?
Don't even know how to start..
No seriously.
Feels like I should start this off a little bit better than just ''Hi, I'm Evee.'' but it seems like this is the only way I can come up with right now.
So.
Hi, I'm Evee Immortal. Nice you meet you :3
Decided to write a little blog here now for fun and see what comes out of it.
Soon to be 18 years old which is, freakin' epic I can tell ya that. I'll be mostly talking about my days in school at home or just with friends. My own experiance and those unsuall times in daily basis.
Well, of course it's not very usuall to drop a knife while eating but that isn't what I'll be writing about.
Mostly, my reactions..
I react to certain things differently than most people do. I learn to be calm and patient when to comes to huge problems. Hard to believe? Keep reading and you'll find out yourself. :3

I like drawing. I have a huge passion in it. I tend to swear a lot, due, to that that I believe in freedom of speech. I say how it is and how I think, but you'll never hear me say something bad about someone. If you do, the sentence would always be ''I don't know this person very well, so my opinion in temporary''.

I love fashion, yet I am not so fahionable myself. Tend to not waste my money, so I usually come up with outfits from what I have. Extremely inlove with tights. But what happens when it's -20 degrees cold? Well, I still do wear tights, with a secret, without getting cold. One day I might reveal it.

I love all kinds of music. Wether it's from rock to pop, from metal to jazz, as long it has a good beat, there is no stopping me from listening!

Nature. Animals. Art. Theater. Fashion. Imagination. Fantasy. These seven words build up my whole life. And, ofv course let's not forget food. And the bathroom. And sleep... Yeah. Those 3 things are the one that KEEP me alive.

I travel sometimes too. Whenever there is a possability. Recently been to Spain. Boy that was a heck of a place to be in..
Anybody been in Spain? You have? Really now. Well if you have been there, I'd get to tell you more about it than you know. Spain? Heck. I've been to the REAL Spain, saw how people work and make wine. Not an alcohol fan though, but always excited to see how things come in life.

Follow me on my instagram too! :3 http://instagram.com/evee_immortal You get to see some nice things there too :3